Elliott Smith - Between The Bars

Drink up baby, stay up all night
With the things you could do
You won't but you might
The potential you'll be that you'll never see
The promises you'll only make
Drink up with me now
And forget all about the pressure of days
Do what I say and I'll make you okay
And drive them away
The images stuck in your head

The people you've been before
That you don't want around anymore
That push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still

Drink up baby, look at the stars
I'll kiss you again between the bars
Where I'm seeing you there with your hands in the air
Waiting to finally be caught
Drink up one more time and I'll make you mine
Keep you apart, deep in my heart
Separate from the rest, where I like you the best
And keep the things you forgot

The people you've been before
That you don't want around anymore
That push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still

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this is what love should be :>

stand by you and
keep stay away
until you need me

everything is illuminated

everything is illuminated (2005)

" I have reflected many times upon our rigid search. It has shown me...
... that everything is illuminated in the light of the past.
It is always along the side of us...... on the inside, looking out. "


Elijah Wood and Eugene Hutz photo by Burlap Jacket

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小說的敘述是極奢侈的寫作，極專情，極度綿密，
以無間斷與無保留的敘述陳列了所有細節
（就像一個收藏者打開他的房間，裡面舖天蓋地地以各式各樣的物件綴飾了每一方寸空間）
在湧溢而出的細節之海裡，以幾乎是”感覺”的方式
瞥見層層故事底下感情
所散發的羞怯微光

電影將小說魔幻式的多重故事線簡化，聚焦為主角的尋根之旅
以第三人稱沉默而柔軟的凝視代替小說第一人稱的敘叨
成為一部真正的電影
以影像與聲音為角色服務
歷史的語言退隱而下
血與肉自紙頁飛躍而出，在真實的空氣裡獨自發現他自己的故事


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Radiohead - All I Need [live From the Basement]

" I am a moth who just wants to share your light "

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collecting funny Thom Yorke :D

生物的哀愁

p.67 / model：Andrzej Pagowski


＂他望著我，眼神中有一種酸苦之意，說：如果我知道，那就不是直覺了。
我在剎那間感到，他說這句話的時候，是我和他的心靈最接近的一刻。
在那裡，我們彷彿差點而相碰，但始終卻錯過了，我們又漸漸離對方越來越遠。＂


quoted from 安卓珍尼 written by 董啟章


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為什麼要寫出這樣一篇小說反對(異性戀的)愛情
我不懂
愛情裡一定會有最大最激烈的寂寞
一定會有無法克服的心靈距離
一定會有黑暗得叫人難以自制的慾望
可是這就是愛情
愛情沒有什麼了不起，愛情是兩頭動物為了暫時忘記生存的絕望而互相舔噬啃咬
幸運的愛情是他們互相理解了彼此的哀傷，一起克服生存的絕望，一起創造生活的價值
不幸運的愛情是他們什麼都不做
只是這樣而已






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The Human Centipede | 人體蜈蚣 | 我只剩下對藝術性的讚服

The Human Centipede 人體蜈蚣 (2009)


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開著燈不發一語地看完，覺得很噁心很害怕，不敢繼續多想
趕快分心作別的事，檔案也直接刪掉不願留在電腦裡
然後
睡一覺起來，睜著眼睛躺在床上，竟然默默地在腦海裡將整部電影重演一遍
每個畫面，每句台詞，每個眼神，都自動且流暢地浮現上來
侵占掉我的意識
我越是掉進情節裡，越有一種逐漸真實的悲傷湧起
我開始明白那些事情是很有可能發生的
一個人因為他自己的狂想與慾望，手上又剛好有堪用資源與能力
就的確能夠不必過問地
宰制別人的人生
這是很有可能的，又簡單，又純粹，我幾乎都要問為何不了呢？
但是仍然感覺悲傷
不只因為受驚於死者的徒勞與不幸
也為那創作者那種單向性，孤獨的成就感感到悲傷　

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不過兩天後再回想就一個爽字
不是對情節的讚服
是對藝術性的讚服




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